Due to time constraint, I was unable to prepare for exams and once again, the fear of failure shattered me. After receiving guidance from a senior leader, I decided to exert in my studies as much as possible. However, I could hardly prepare 25% of the syllabus. For exams, I commuted to Rohtak on daily basis with my father. After returning, I used to study the whole night overcoming my fears and negativities. I received constant support from my parents and leaders, which kept me sailing through the rough seas. I daily chanted for half an hour.
In the exam center, the college authorities to ensure good results practiced unfair means. I also got tempted, as it was an easy way out much effort. “Apply yourself to the faith with the spirit of permeating your entire being with the Mystic Law. Doing so will enable you to develop a life condition of indomitability, capable of dealing with whatever may happen."
Keeping aside my fear and worry about the B.ed result, my next step was to get a job. I dropped in my resume in six to seven schools and prayed for a school where I could get Kosen Rufu training and manifest my potential as a teacher.
However, I could not get through the first interview but was still happy, as I had conquered yet another weakness of mine – hesitation and fear.
Few days later, I received an interview call from B.M.V.B School. I cleared both the written exam and the interview out of 20 candidates. My late grandfather had been the Chairman of the school many years back in 1980s. This bothered me as I felt the job was offered to me as a tribute to my grandfather. So, I gathered courage and inquired them about my selection. I was told that the Principal who was unaware of the fact recommended me and I was selected based on interview. My happiness knew no bounds and I immediately accepted the job offer although the salary was very less, my being a fresher. Ikeda Sensei says, “To slack off at work just because one’s salary isn’t high is foolish”
They promised me an increment in the next session depending on my performance. In my heart, I knew that I landed up in the place of my mission. On 30th June 2007, I was introduced to the staff members in the monthly staff meeting. The director of the school addressed me as a very confident teacher and a lady of great self-esteem. It was a great moment for me as I brought glory to my parents and Sensei.
My B.ed result was declared in August 2007. To my surprise I cleared all papers and scored 74%, the highest percentage that I have ever scored. I have now completed a year in the school.
By basing my struggle on faith, I have relieved both conspicuous and inconspicuous benefits. I thank and appreciate the Gohonzon for immense compassion.
My Determination:
I will make a great vow in the same spirit as my mentor
I will strive hard so that chanting daimoku and sharing Buddhism becomes my second nature.
I will become an educationist like Makiguchi Sensei.
By July 3rd 2008 my salary will be more than double
I will report victory to Sensei and share my experience YWD AGM
By 16th September ’08 I will chant 1 million daimoku and change my family’s karma by one eighty degree.